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No Pasarans 2

October 22, 2010 By longrun Leave a Comment

memory plus time = storyI grew up knowing more about Teruel and The Spanish Civil War  than most of the adults living through those times. It seemed a beacon for right thinking people. The young and rebellious, the idealists of all stripes and creeds, my father included, flocked to it as volunteers and fundraisers. The enemy was clear, the expected outcome dire. Romantic to be sure but as the world turned colder and wars became an unholy brutality it seemed that the bravery and idealism of the Republican forces continued, even now, to hold their place of noble note...read more

Originally posted at   http://lifeasahuman.com/2010/arts-culture/photography/no-pasaran/

Filed Under: Tarmac Meditations Tagged With: journal, Photography, Spanish Civil War, St. Exupery

Tarmac Meditations-Gonna Run Later

October 21, 2010 By longrun Leave a Comment

book shelf poetryGonna run later. These words,”famous last words” my father used to say quietly, accompanied by a small “not again” shake of his head, much to my constant irritation; up to and including this morning. Of course he wasn’t here but the words, oh my, those words. It was a morning after not much sleep, a kitchen calamity involving both the automatic coffee machine and the fuzzy headed coffee maker along with the added benefit of a shower of muesli from the not properly closed cereal bin. After a small clean up of spilled coffee(not really possible to spill coffee when is being made in a closed container that requires only that the water is in the tank, the coffee is ground and in the filter which is in the filter holder and the cover is closed..except that it is…it has something to do with not putting the carafe under the drip spout, which doesn’t drip until the carafe top compresses it and then, voila, coffee on the counter top) and a “good vacuuming” of the kitchen at 4:22 AM, it was time to run. Said he, me that is, gonna run in a few minutes, gonna check my email. Not much there so I thought to get on top of the photo editing that needed doing and so I did. Well I did get to the editing after I straightened up the bookshelf behind the desk. Then I got a phone message in my email from the cell phone I left upstairs when I came down to my office to edit. It reported to me ( no shaking head here except mine) that I had blown a 7:00 meeting which I was supposed to lead. Not running yet, as you can see. Went, made apologies, came back finished the editing, it’s now later and there is no running still. Gonna lift instead and run twice as long tomorrow. Except for the tomorrow part it is a good plan. Can’t make up “missed” miles you can only run the miles you run which means instead of a rest day this weekend there will be consecutive running days. And so it goes…

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No Pasarán: Found Photographs and Lost Eras

October 21, 2010 By longrun 1 Comment

No Pasaran

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Story Behind the Images

I grew up knowing more about Teruel and the Spanish Civil War than most of the adults who actually lived through those times. The war seemed to be a beacon for right-thinking people — the young and rebellious, the idealists of all stripes and creeds, my father included, flocked to the war as volunteers and fundraisers. The enemy was clear, the expected outcome dire. Romantic to be sure — but as the world turned colder and wars became an unholy brutality, it seemed that the bravery and idealism of the Republican forces continued, even now, to hold their place of noble note.

And sometimes, in the literature of the times, in Hemingway and Malraux, in Saint-Exupéry and Romain Gary, the best of what my father’s generation grew to understand and eventually to carry forward was revealed, revered and made mine. That it has been tarnished and misused, ignored when most needed is my doing and none of their own. No pasarán, he told me once. They shall not pass. It means that you can overcome your own worst fears, he said, and make better decisions for yourself. It has taken the better part of my life but here I am and I say, no pasarán, m—-f—er, I’m here and it is my time.

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The Images Behind the Story

This image above is the result of a failed attempt, one of many, to create a background for my new photo site. I wanted something film-like in the background so I googled “negatives” and came up with several sites that featured negative strips of 35mm film.

One of the sites featured a story about Robert Capa, the famed still photographer whose pictures of combat set a standard for realism that has rarely been matched. Capa’s photos of the Spanish Civil War are the stuff of legend for their graphic humanism in the midst of slaughter. The other item was series of explorations of open-pit mining, images of destruction in the name of a different kind of progress.

I started by cutting and pasting the images in a random way in order to fill in the required [web] space. I hated it. Didn’t work at all. But the more I looked at the image I had accidentally created, the more it spoke to me of something buried, a moment long lost, a connection with my father who died ten years ago the other day. It became memory, something of value for itself.


Photo Credit

“No Pasarán” Photo Collage by Michael Lebowitz, LongRun Photography

Filed Under: Photography Tagged With: combat photography, Hemingway, Robert Capa, Spanish Civil War, Teruel

Tarmac Meditations-Another Day

October 20, 2010 By longrun Leave a Comment

Pre's Trail with mistRan on the track behind South Eugene High this morning at 5:30. My “guys”, the running buddies, a later edition of the Road2Ruin Runners Club, wanted to go steady state for a mile or more…injuries and fitness are determining a slow, slow buildup in volume of  mileage and tempo. So I agreed with the whole thing except the mile part. You see, they are 20+ years younger, 40+ lbs lighter, way better looking, more fit, happier, more stable, married, on the straight and narrow. Of course I am all of those things too, except some of them, like younger, fitter, some days happier and like that. I ran 2×800 and a 1/4 at “speed” plus a couple of straights. No hamstring issues, no back spasms, no medals. A perfect workout on a mist rising into the full moon sky kind of morning. Like the mornings from way back when football practice or track practice was coming and the cheerleaders were gathered in on the steps, doing their stuff. Never went out with a cheerleader. Once,years later, went out with a pro figure skater who had been a cheerleader in high school for her older brother’s baseball team. He went on to pitch for the Cleveland Indians. As I remember it now, our relationship, if that’s what it was, lasted as long as his pitching stint in the “bigs”. You might say long enough to have a cup of coffee and a shower. You might not.

Filed Under: Tarmac Meditations Tagged With: coffee, moonlight, morning, running

Tarmac Meditations-To Run or Not to Run

October 18, 2010 By longrun Leave a Comment

stamina, trail runningMade the decision not to run today. Made the same one yesterday. It’s the same decision as deciding to run because a runner decides whether or not to run everyday. Same decision process. Different results. Today? Migraine and grumpiness. Not really a good enough reason but reason enough. Need to change the context I think. Run everyday, except some days when you don’t. Is this a change? The whole thing is tiring me out.

Filed Under: Tarmac Meditations Tagged With: journal, meditation, running, tarmac, training journal

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