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Embrace the Chaos-Shooting in the Real World

May 5, 2012 By Michael Lebowitz Leave a Comment

From Joe McNally, one of the best of the best…

“The life of a shooter is driven by passion, not reason. This is not a reasonable thing to do. A colleague I know offers this advice: “If you want to do this, you have to make uncertainty your friend.” Indeed, you do.

In this life of uncertainty, it is, however, absolutely certain that some shit’s gonna happen to you. What follows below are some notions on coping.

If the angels sit on your shoulders on a particular day or job, and you knock it out of the park, feel good, giddy even, but get over it. Tomorrow’s job will be on you like a junkyard dog, and will tear the ass outta your good mood in a New York minute.

If you win a contest, appreciate it, be gracious, and give thanks to everybody involved, especially your editor and the magazine, even if they had nothing to do with it and actually did their level best to obstruct you at every turn. Contest wins give a warm fuzzy feeling inside but shrug it off ‘cause tomorrow you still have to put on your pants and go find work.

Understand that the money monitors who show up at these contest driven rubber chicken dinners and breathlessly exclaim, “Love your work!” while shaking one of your hands with both of theirs’ are simultaneously eyeballing you and wondering why you cost so much money and there’s lots of pictures out there for free nowadays and why aren’t we using them? Smile back, and be thankful to them that for a brief interlude, they lost their sense of fiscal responsibility, and somehow you got a bit of budget to do something that was terribly important originally only to you, but because you executed it with such passion and clarity, it has now become important to lots of people, given the impact of your photos.

Know that whole bunches of folks will try to take credit for everything you just did. It’s okay. You got a chance to do it.

Understand that in the world of  content-desperate big publications, and the multi-nationals that own them, that next year’s contract will be worse than this year’s. And if the contract is real, real bad, they might actually hire somebody to come in and explain why it is “good for you” in so many ways. Know that the phrase “good for you” is interchangeable with, “you’re screwed.”

(Recent update on that type of language. Lots of contracts now are accompanied by language that state that what’s being offered is in keeping with “current industry standards and norms.” For the translation of that, see the paragraph immediately above.)

Know there will be days out there that feel like you’re trying to walk in heavy clothes through a raging surf. The waves knock you about like a tenpin, you have the agility of the Michelin Man, and you take five steps just to make the progress of one. The muck you are walking in feels like concrete about to set. Even the cameras feel heavier than normal as you lift them to your (on this day) unseeing eyes.

There will these days. You must get past them with equanimity and not allow them to destroy your love of doing this. Know on these days you are not making great art, and that every frame you shoot is not a shouted message of the truth that will echo down the corridors of time forever. You are out there with a camera, trying to survive, and shoot some stuff, however workmanlike or even outright mediocre, that will enable you to a) get paid, and b) live to fight another day.

There will be times when you cannot pay the bills. You look at your camera and desperately wish it was an ATM or the stock portfolio of a far more sensible person. Have faith. Return your phone calls. Keep shooting, if only for yourself. Actually, especially for yourself. Use this work to send out reminders that you are around and alive. Stay the course.

Spider Web in Winter

Love this fiercely, every day. Things change, and generally for the lonely photog, they don’t change for the better. What you are complaining about today, after the next few curves in the road you’ll recall with fond reverie. “Remember those jobs we used to get from the Evil Media Empire wire service? The ones where they paid us 50 bucks, owned all our rights, and we had to pay mileage and parking and let them use our gear for free? Remember those sumbitches? God, those were they days, huh?”

Remember we are blessed, despite the degree of difficulty. We are in the world, breathe unfiltered air, and don’t have to stare at numbers or reports trudging endlessly across a computer screen. Most businesses or business-like endeavors thrive on a certain degree of predictability, sameness and the reproducibility of results. They kinda like to know what the market’s gonna do. By contrast, we are on a tightrope, living for wildly unlikely split second successes, and actually hoping those magic convergences of luck, timing and observation will never, ever be reproduced again.

We don’t know what’s gonna happen, and most of the time, when it does, we miss it. Or what we think we’re waiting for actually never happens. It’s anxiety producing, and laced with forehead slapping frustration. If we were a stock or a bond, we would undoubtedly get a junk rating. Not a smart pick, no, not at all.

But what a beautifully two edged sword this is! What shreds your hopes one day cuts back, just sometimes, and offers up something to your lens that’s the equivalent of paddles to the chest. Clear! You’re alive again, and the bad stuff and horrible frames fall away like dead leaves in an autumn rain.

At those moments, the camera is no longer this heavy box filled with mysterious numbers, dials and options. It is an extension of your head and your heart, and works in concert with them. Whereas many times you look through the lens and see only doubt, at these times, you see with clarity, precision, and absolute purpose.

Know these moments occur only occasionally. Treasure them. They make all the bad stuff worth it. They make this the best thing to do, ever.”  Joe McNally 2012

 

 

 

Filed Under: Journal, Photography, Tarmac Meditations Tagged With: combat photography, joe mcnally, Photography, shooting

No Pasarán: Found Photographs and Lost Eras

October 21, 2010 By longrun 1 Comment

No Pasaran

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The Story Behind the Images

I grew up knowing more about Teruel and the Spanish Civil War than most of the adults who actually lived through those times. The war seemed to be a beacon for right-thinking people — the young and rebellious, the idealists of all stripes and creeds, my father included, flocked to the war as volunteers and fundraisers. The enemy was clear, the expected outcome dire. Romantic to be sure — but as the world turned colder and wars became an unholy brutality, it seemed that the bravery and idealism of the Republican forces continued, even now, to hold their place of noble note.

And sometimes, in the literature of the times, in Hemingway and Malraux, in Saint-Exupéry and Romain Gary, the best of what my father’s generation grew to understand and eventually to carry forward was revealed, revered and made mine. That it has been tarnished and misused, ignored when most needed is my doing and none of their own. No pasarán, he told me once. They shall not pass. It means that you can overcome your own worst fears, he said, and make better decisions for yourself. It has taken the better part of my life but here I am and I say, no pasarán, m—-f—er, I’m here and it is my time.

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The Images Behind the Story

This image above is the result of a failed attempt, one of many, to create a background for my new photo site. I wanted something film-like in the background so I googled “negatives” and came up with several sites that featured negative strips of 35mm film.

One of the sites featured a story about Robert Capa, the famed still photographer whose pictures of combat set a standard for realism that has rarely been matched. Capa’s photos of the Spanish Civil War are the stuff of legend for their graphic humanism in the midst of slaughter. The other item was series of explorations of open-pit mining, images of destruction in the name of a different kind of progress.

I started by cutting and pasting the images in a random way in order to fill in the required [web] space. I hated it. Didn’t work at all. But the more I looked at the image I had accidentally created, the more it spoke to me of something buried, a moment long lost, a connection with my father who died ten years ago the other day. It became memory, something of value for itself.


Photo Credit

“No Pasarán” Photo Collage by Michael Lebowitz, LongRun Photography

Filed Under: Photography Tagged With: combat photography, Hemingway, Robert Capa, Spanish Civil War, Teruel